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All I want is for someone to explain to me what is wrong with me. Is that really too much to ask..

Hi

No matter what I do, I always seem to be disappointing everyone. I can never live up to anyone’s expectations. Well world, I’m not perfect. Deal with it or I honestly don’t want you in my life because it’s not even worth it. It really sucks trying so hard every day to make everyone happy, and then they just end up being disappointed. Once, twice, even three times would be fine with me. But this happens every. Sine. Day. All I do all day is try to make others happy. I push my own problems away so I can deal with everyone else’s shit. And it all gets thrown back in my face.. I can never do anything right, and it’s not even worth it anymore. It’s pointless to live life acting like I’m okay with all of this. I’m not okay. Crying every night, doubting my faith, pushing away my friends and my family. Obviously I am not okay.

It still amazes me how much I can hold inside without showing people how I really feel